*He stands with his arms crossed, looking at the floor, and takes a long moment to reply.*
I had a few months after all that, as I said. I wanted to keep busy. That means --
* -- there's a slight, uncomfortable shift in his position -- *
The days seemed long, Misa, and I could never decide whether or not I wanted to sleep much. I did not think I would be seeing you again. I did not know whether or not I should hope for it.
*He can't begin, just now, to put together the words to explain it -- how he took every case that came to hand just to have something to do, how he would stay awake as long as he could to avoid the dreams of her, a bout with the flu during which he worked as long as possible and wound up hospitalized. When he was released, he immediately resumed his former schedule. He still feels more tired than usual. The work has been profoundly unsatisfying -- nothing is as challenging as the Kira case, and he is aware that he did not solve it on his own power. All of this is embarrassing; work should have been a comfort to him, the one constant in his life.*
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Date: 2009-01-19 02:34 am (UTC)From:I had a few months after all that, as I said. I wanted to keep busy. That means --
* -- there's a slight, uncomfortable shift in his position -- *
The days seemed long, Misa, and I could never decide whether or not I wanted to sleep much. I did not think I would be seeing you again. I did not know whether or not I should hope for it.
*He can't begin, just now, to put together the words to explain it -- how he took every case that came to hand just to have something to do, how he would stay awake as long as he could to avoid the dreams of her, a bout with the flu during which he worked as long as possible and wound up hospitalized. When he was released, he immediately resumed his former schedule. He still feels more tired than usual. The work has been profoundly unsatisfying -- nothing is as challenging as the Kira case, and he is aware that he did not solve it on his own power. All of this is embarrassing; work should have been a comfort to him, the one constant in his life.*