The wonder that's keeping the stars apart

[firm_detective]

L sits on the sofa, reading a book, waiting for Misa to return from the kitchen. When he hears the door opening, he doesn't look up.

"Misa, we need to talk about something."

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[firm-detective.livejournal.com]

... Even so, as foolish as I know I'll feel during the learning process, I am willing to try it. It sounds ridiculous, but if it is viable -- and it is the only viable possibility to present itself so far -- I think we have to make the attempt.

*He puts his arm around her shoulders, putting his face closer to hers.*

[misamisal.livejournal.com]

::she nods::
I think I'll feel a bit silly, too, depending on what we have to do. I may laugh a lot, I think. ::she smiles slightly::

::when he wraps his arm around her, she slides hers around his lower back, her hand resting on his waist, gently pressing the side of her face to his::
I'm will to try anything if there's a possibility that it may work. Though I must warn you, I'm not very good with getting cut, so I'll probably cry. ::she laughs softly, a bit embaressed:: I may even have to throw up afterward.

[firm-detective.livejournal.com]

*He turns his face and kisses her cheek.*

I don't know how much of a cut will be necessary, or who has to do the cutting. We can learn, though.

I would rather not have to cut you.

[misamisal.livejournal.com]

::turning her face, she captures his lips, then rests her forehead to his::

I'd rather not have to cut you, either. But, if it means we'll be able to be together, I'm willing ot try it.

[firm-detective.livejournal.com]

*He leans into the kiss, then, after she speaks, lets out another uneasy chuckle.*

Let's not make a habit of it.

*He twists his head to kiss her again.*

It seems so real now. It's easy to talk about it, but now that it may happen... there's a different feeling.

Another concern I have is the possibility that I will not be able to change things after all. Then you'll be alone there, completely adrift, and it will all have been for nothing.

[misamisal.livejournal.com]

::she chuckles along with him::
I agree, let's try not too.

::she gulps nervously, then wraps her other arm around him, holding tightly, clinging to him::
I know. I'm scared.

[firm-detective.livejournal.com]

*He embraces her, then picks up a strand of her hair, letting it fall through his fingers to hit her shoulder.*

The incident with Light last week was... alarming. I believe he went into a room that restored his memory of being Kira, and removed his memory of his time here completely. It passed in almost no time, but while it lasted, I have to admit I was panicking.

The first thing I plan to do is to set up some safeguards. I'll never be able to completely ensure my own safety; I can, however, be sure that you won't be left with nothing.

[misamisal.livejournal.com]

::she squeezes him tighter and when she speaks, it sounds as if her voice is being squeezes as well::

It was alarming. And, thank you, but please don't talk like that. The thought of harm being brought upon you...
::she can't even finish her sentence. She can only shake her head and press herself a bit more against him::

[firm-detective.livejournal.com]

... Is something you will have to learn to live with, Misa. It isn't realistic to pretend that it's impossible that anything could ever happen.

*But he squeezes her tightly in return.*

[misamisal.livejournal.com]

I know...I know...I just love you so much, I don't want to lose you, ever.

[firm-detective.livejournal.com]

*He brushes her hair back from her face with the side of his hand.*

I know, but... everything has an ending, Misa. As much as I don't want to lose you, either, the end will come someday. We can only hope that it's later rather than sooner, yes?

[misamisal.livejournal.com]

::framing his face with her hands, she gives a bittersweet smile::
Yes...I hope we can be together for a long time.

[firm-detective.livejournal.com]

*He kisses her again.*

If anything should happen to you... Misa, there won't ever be anyone else for me. I hope you understand that.

[misamisal.livejournal.com]

::she nods::
There won't be anyone else for me, either.

[firm-detective.livejournal.com]

But there should be. You are not like me -- you trust people. Too much, I often think.

[misamisal.livejournal.com]

::she looks away, looking remorseful::
I know. I just feel like, there has to be some good inside just about everyone. If I can connect with that piece of them, then...::she shakes her head, then looks back up at him:: But, I know, I trust people too much sometimes. I try not to, but I feel like the way I trust people, they can't really hurt me with the things I trust them with. It's kind of silly. ::she smiles sheepishly::

[firm-detective.livejournal.com]

You should think of protecting yourself, first. It's one of my greatest concerns for the future.

*He leans back to lie down, pulling her with him.*

I have to be able to trust your discretion.

[misamisal.livejournal.com]

::she's pulled with him, holding onto him tightly, but gently::
Back in your world, I'll be much more careful. Here, I feel as if we can't really be harmed, considering where we are, though I do keep some things to myself.
However, back in my world, I was rather shy, and quiet. Not even my sister really knew much about me. Besides, it'll be different back in your world. No one will really know I exist, except for those closest to us. And I'll make sure I don't put you or myself in danger.

[firm-detective.livejournal.com]

*His embrace tightens, becomes firm, but he doesn't look into her face.*

I said something when I was small that I -- didn't intend to say. Misa, I'm not sure I could ever marry you.

Please understand -- I've said "could," not "would."

[misamisal.livejournal.com]

::she giggles::
That was so cute.
::she strokes his face, smiling::
I understand, and it's alright. We care for each other, and that's all that matters. :)

[firm-detective.livejournal.com]

I think it's important to say, now, though. It strikes me that this procedure, crossing worlds, tying ourselves to each other so completely... it seems more like a wedding than most of the common ceremonies, even in its effects.

*He looks at her, now, craning his neck up to kiss her.*

It was something I had planned to think about more in the future, but once the possibility of learning the rituals became a reality, it became clear to me.

I'm... already yours, Misa, as much as I can be anyone's.

[misamisal.livejournal.com]

::she nods, smiling::
I agree. To be honest, it's more special to me than any wedding could be.It makes me happy to hear you say that. I'm already yours as well.
::she lays her head down, resting against his chest, smiling softly as she listens to his heart beating::

[firm-detective.livejournal.com]

*Stroking the back of her head with the tips of his long fingers, he sounds hesitant.*

Yes, but-- that means it-- I thought it was too soon to consider that kind of commitment, and it is also more binding than any wedding.

The situation requires it, though. We don't have the luxury of time for indecision.

It is only that I hope we will never have cause to regret it.

[misamisal.livejournal.com]

I hope not, either. But...I don't think I'll ever regret it.

[firm-detective.livejournal.com]

*His voice is almost inaudible.*

... the possibility frightens me, Misa. So many people make these kinds of promises, and then the promises don't last. It's the rule, not the exception.